Kaithie

let the sun shine on you

April 30, 2012 7:02 pm April 21, 2012 9:45 pm April 4, 2012 2:20 pm 2:40 am

even an impossible thing becomes possible when you really want it. but after it has happened i do not feel so excited as it was after the first meeting in the Net. i dont know why it is so if i dreamt about seeing this man once more at least to exchange e-mail adresses to keep in touch. but delightful was to see his suprised and full of emotions face on seeng me all of a sudden :) 

April 3, 2012 8:29 pm April 2, 2012 3:22 am March 31, 2012 1:49 am March 30, 2012 6:50 pm March 26, 2012 1:00 am March 25, 2012 9:49 pm

I wonder how does it feel to be one of those gorgeous girls everyone likes and  adores. I`d like to experience how it feels. Damn it will never actually happen and it makes me suffer from depression. An ugly piece of shit no matter what anyone says…Probable i haven`t found the right person yet who would love me truly and whose words i would firmly believe. I feel miserable. That is not about i dont love myself. I love myself enough, but when there is no man next to me who sincerely adores my every breath, i start doubting if i really as good as it seems to me.  If I  to find such a man only in the end of my life, i`d better die somewhere in the middle…Oh how much  I need a loving and caring guy, whom i would give no less attention and tenderness.That`s an unbereable feeling of  lonliness mixed with instability. Oh holy shit…